But rearing dogs are really not an easy job. You need to be responsible with anything happen to the dogs and when you really loves them, when they got sick, you would be worrying them and would not fall asleep.
I came back home yesterday and I realized one of my puppies got sick. Saliva kept on dripping from his mouth and he looks so weak. The moment I opened the door of the cage, he would always jump out and excitedly jump towards me happily. But yesterday was the first time, no matter how I called him, he just don't feel like coming out. The active and cute 小黄 became so weak and silent. The moment I saw him, I really upset and I just blank out, I don't know what's the next step I should do and I really don't used with this feelings as he is the one would be the loudest barking when I'm back from anywhere. I was so worried and I can't sleep well yesterday at all. The moment I closed up my eyes, all the pictures I can see are 小黄. I'm afraid of what the vet would say when I bring him to the clinic and what actually happened to 小黄. I kept on thinking and thinking but I just can't figure out. I did tried not to think about it and fall asleep but it really doesn't work. I really try hard to don't think about it but my mind just don't stop me from thinking about it. But slowly I don't know why at last I got to sleep but I kept on rolling on the bed not really fully asleep.
At last, I brought 小黄 to the vet, and the vet said he might accidentally lick something corrosive at home that makes his tongue got burnt therefore his can't swallow and hence he kept on salivating. When the vet was wiping his mouth, his gum kept on bleeding non-stop. He has suffered so much that he could not even eat or drink. I can feel how he feels but I can't help me to reduce the pain. The pain is on his body, but the pain I feel it deeply down in my heart. Later on, vet suggest him to admit in the clinic for 3 days and see how his condition is. If he does not recover in 3 days time, the vet would need to have a blood test on him to check whether is he having any organ damage especially in his kidney. On the way going home, I have two thinkings : First, I'm glad the vet can give him treatment and therefore he has a chance to recover. Secondly, I feel unsecure, I'm thinking 'what if he does not recover as vet said the worst that would happen on him is kidney damage and if it is serious he would die' I just can't accept the fact that the one used to be so active now admitted suffering in the clinic.
Just now, I received a call saying that 小黄 is really weak and blood test would need to be carry out. I'm really worried and afraid about his condition. I don't want him to die and I would really not used if he is not around me any more. I'm afraid to receive calls from the vet giving me the news which I wouldn't want. I don't dare to blog this alone in the room because alone in room blogging this would make me cry and more upset while blogging this in the living hall with my family members there would stop me to cry in front of everyone.I really pray hard that 小黄 would recover soon and no more bad news calls from the vet only GOOD news. This is really what I hope for now.
Got to go and finish my reports and homeworks. Hope that by being busy I can stop thinking about what I don't want to think. nightzzz
